Because I feel tidy.

Have you ever wanted something so badly you get all worked up about it? You stress, you go hyper, you don't know where to go because you WANT to! Though, at the same time, it's in some ways scary, it's nagging you, stresses you out to the point where you might feel ill because... Well, you are afraid. Maybe not so much, but the hyper over WANTING kicks decent leveled feelings storm somewhere else.

I just sent requests on information about lessons for instructors on a few stables with icelantic horses. I really want to start to ride, to learn and above all; learn enough so that I become able to ride without beeing nervous to the point where I feel ill when I'm about to sit up, feel like crying if I think I wont manage to go through with a situation... Above all, I want to learn to ride good enough to take care of a horse I will never get. I will have a horse someday, but that horse wont be her. But first, I need to learn to ride properly.

Sweaty hands, racing heart and stressed out body. Just from sending a few mails. This summer I managed to ride qutie a few tours on a horse people where afraid of, yet I'm scared like a hunted rabbit at the thought of riding for an instructor. I've just had so very bad experiences before...

We'll see where it all ends. I got pants for riding yesterday. One step toward making myself to a horse person again.

And once again, it's the yearly book sale. I bought a few yesterday, as I couldn't help myself...

A book about weddings and preparations, we seriously need it now. x3

A book on digital photo handling for papa, as her has taken an interest in it recently but isn't too familiar with computers. He sent me a psd-format picture file the other day, he needs to learn a bit about lots of stuff xD

A book about animals to my nephews. Just because I wanted to. There were so many bugs in it, I do hope they'll like it.

A book about cooking (oh my, my dear bf wasn't all that happy, I already have soooo many of them! xD)

A book about smart tips in handling a houshold and...

A book with Horsies! :3 Stuffed with photos by Bob Langrish. A few books more, and I'll have quite the decent collection of ref books <3 The thing I miss the most is good photo books with heavy horses, drafts and such. Those and Icelantics are the one I like the most, after all. ^^ Most photo books are just filled with slender, neat horses. Great photos, nice horses, but, oh my, it gets boring. <.<


All this, and I haven't yet even started to actually look around the sales for real. xD This is the time for book shopping folks! x3

so, I'm feeling like just randomly post a journal entry! x3

What's your random for today? ;3 Mine is:

TOMATO!








...yes.